Welcome to my updated and final Web Site.
For so long now, I've been wondering and almost debating inside of
myself on how to make this new site. How does one explain and put into words something that has happend
that was the most powerful thing to have touched my life? How can as if, being hit by lighting be put into simple words? It's
because of not being able to give this events just due that i've been putting off putting it together i'm very happy
to say that I no longer need to do that..
You see, just today while walking on my very special beach front,
i seen a butterfly in flight and I remembered from science study how they can remember being a caterpillar beforehand, and
while watching it's beautiful wings dancing up and down I could not help but remembering about this girl
that was in great pain, torment and wanting to die feeling almost like that caterpillar moving ever so slow on the
ground and being on the bottom of everything. Sometimes feeling so much like the very dirt that for the longest
time, was it's home. Only having to climb up just to get anything worth while in life. It was during watching this beautiful
butterfly that I could not help but to remember what happend in my life and what the Lord has done for it just because
of one personal wise thing i did on one special afternoon.
No, i'm not talking about college , guys, getting drunk, drugs or
any silly none sense of this earthly life but, only simple prayer and asking something from Him.
You
see, One day just about when i was ready to give it all up in life because of my feeling so much pain and sadness
in my heart, both inside my body and mind, some very special people who I now call my godly family cared about
what i was going though, they worried and was concerned enough to tell me the truth, And that was just to give Jesus a try
and give prayer a fair chance.
Well, to get to the point, I did just that and gave prayer a chance
by one afternoon walking on a silent beach in front of my home..
You see, I barked, yelled and even cussed at our heavenly Father
not ever knowing what was about to happen that would change my life forever. I remember asking God almost as if,
in a fit of anger that if he was real to do something to show and prove to this simple girl from south florida something
that would cause her to believe on Him and have a reason for going on one more day without putting a bullet inside
my head. Well, little did i know what was about to happen.
Yep! that's right, He did just as i asked or tempted that He
could not. Almost as a bolt of lighting, I felt as though my legs give out from below me and I fell
to my knees into the sand on the waters edge and just as if, with a soft breath of air, I started to feel
words pooring into my soul ( not with words as humans speak) but more of a deep burning feeling inside more and
more pooring from His spirit, the words simular to this song playing right into my heart. The only thing i
remember from that moment and words spoken to me directly from our Father was; ' My Child, you wanted to know. I am..' with the I am part of it being burned into my living soul
forever.
It was at that very moment that i could not speak words, stand up out of the sand and water, or even
think clearly because as if being pulled from inside out all i could do was to cry because of feeling
so humble and small in His glory.
Well, it was on that very special night, that I first believed
in God and felt Him for the very first time, and from that very moment I had this burning desire inside of
myself wanting almost as if, needing to have more of His love living inside of my heart.
You see, in all of my short years of just 18, and to this
day, i've never felt anything like that, It was so much love that very words is not enough to use. It
was during these moments with nothing more the tears falling from my face that I begged Him to come into my life
and live forever inside of me and from that very day, my life has never been the same as it while living my life
as that caterpillar did.
Just as that butterfly went though a change, i did also but, now for the first time I
could fly seeing just how simple minded, lost and confussed everything was in life. and now just as with nature,
I have the wind of the Spirit of God under me.
You know, sometimes I can't help but to cry and laugh
at myself rememebering that old shell crawling around before searching for anything to keep me going. But, now..
Well, I know with honest truth. All we need to do is believe on Him with faith and that's the bottom line
message of this new site i've put together.
I thought long and hard about removing my past sites that was put together
while i was sick and had no direction before, and I even thought the right thing to do was to put that part of who
i was behind me but, after my special walk with our Lord, I desided it was important to not only remember that dead person
that i was, so that i may never forget how Jesus Christ changed my life forever. :) But, also be able to share some
of my feelings of pain at the time of what it feels like being a simple caterpillar. Smile because Jesus Loves you :)
I
do hope you enjoy all of my sites and they bring blessings to your life and family.
Now
in Christ,
Kimberly.
